At work I feel like I am going to have to make a choice soon. I feel like its not somewhere I should be anymore. I don't really enjoy my work there anymore. This also means I have to start looking and I have no idea where to start. Anyone have any ideas?
Some people know that I am having difficulty with PCOS. Its called polycystic ovary syndrome. Basically there are many cysts on my ovaries and it throws everything out of whack. Since last March we have been trying to have a baby and so far it hasn't worked. In December the doctor gave me some medicine to see if that will help but also gave me instructions that if I wanted things to move faster to let her know. That may be something I will be looking into soon. I am scared of things like fertility drugs etc. I am hoping that there is some way to fix this without that or more but I don't think that will be the case. I want to have another one before Colton gets too old and they don't want to play with each other. Pray for some peace and progress with this situation. Some days I am fine with it and others are really hard where I feel like I am defective somehow.
I am so incredibly excited for spring to get here!! I am excited to smell dirt, new grass, rain, worms, the FIRST THUNDERSTORM, etc. I am also excited to go to Palisades Park and take some pictures. This year we are preparing for a garden which will be fun to teach Colton about. Hopefully we will make him a sandbox and if it is at all possible a fence around the backyard so Colton can play. I dream about this fence and just pray we can pull the money out of somewhere to get it. I just would feel so much safer with a fence around our yard. Not that our neighborhood is bad, but with new houses going up and Colton being extremely adventurous he would be safer.
I am also missing friends. I would love to see Gabriel, Clarissa, Becky, Chelsie, B*, Matt and April etc. It has been too long and I really miss them.
What are looking forward to this spring?